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“How It Was” by Czesław Miłosz 🇵🇱🇺🇸 (30 Jun 1911 – 14 Aug 2004)
Translated from the Polish
Stalking a deer I wandered deep into the mountains and from there I saw.
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Or perhaps it was for some other reason that I rose above the setting sun.
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Above the hills of blackwood and a slab of ocean and the steps of a glacier, carmine-colored in the dusk.
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I saw absence; the mighty power of counter-fulfillment; the penalty of a promise lost forever.
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If, in tepees of plywood, tire shreds, and grimy sheet iron, ancient inhabitants of this land shook their rattles, it was all in vain.
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No eagle-creator circled in the air from which the thunderbolt of its glory had been cast out.
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Protective spirits hid themselves in subterranean beds of bubbling ore, jolting the surface from time to time so that the fabric of freeways was bursting asunder.
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God the Father didn’t walk about any longer tending the new shoots of a cedar, no longer did man hear his rushing spirit.
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His son did not know his sonship and turned his eyes away when passing by a neon cross flat as a movie screen showing a striptease.
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This time it was really the end of the Old and the New Testament.
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No one implored, everyone picked up a nodule of agate or diorite to whisper in loneliness: I cannot live any longer.
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Bearded messengers in bead necklaces founded clandestine communes in imperial cities and in ports overseas.
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But none of them announced the birth of a child-savior.
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Soldiers from expeditions sent to punish nations would go disguised and masked to take part in forbidden rites, not looking for any hope.
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They inhaled smoke soothing all memory and, rocking from side to side, shared with each other a word of nameless union.
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Carved in black wood the Wheel of Eternal Return stood before the tents of wandering monastic orders.
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And those who longed for the Kingdom took refuge like me in the mountains to become the last heirs of a dishonored myth.