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“I was torn out of this narrow life …” by Nikolai Gumilev 🇷🇺 (15 Apr 1886 – 26 Aug 1921)
Translated from the Russian by Earl D. Sampson
I was torn out of this narrow life.
This meager, ordinary life,
By your tormenting, wondrous,
Irresistible beauty.
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And I died … and I saw a flame.
One that had never been seen before,
Before my dazzled eyes
Shone a blue star.
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Transforming my spirit and my body,
A musical strain rose, and fell again;
It was the speaking and the ringing
Of your blood, singing like a lute.
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And there was a fragrance, sweeter and more fiery
Than anything found in life,
And even than that lily that grows
In the angels’ lofty garden.
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And suddenly, out of the radiant abyss
The earthly sphere arose again;
You suddenly appeared before me,
Trembling like a wounded bird.
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You repeated, “I am suffering,”
But what can I do, knowing
At last with such sweet certainty
That you are but a blue star.