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“Too late” by Vladislav Khodasevich 🇷🇺 (28 May 1886 – 14 Jun 1939)
Translated from the Russian by Rupert Moreton
Fell to thinking I. And woke up.
Rang out belfry’s toll!
Tapered, smoke-dimmed icons—churchward
Beckons pealing, dole.
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Tardy, tardy—church is empty.
Lastly tolls the bell.
Yearnful heart impatient, sorry
Heartful groan so fell.
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Much too late. It’s snuffed, the candle.
Here—the only one.
Not remembering church is joy-filled,
Sad, returning, son.
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How I want to turn the clock back,
Down on knees I fall!
God, O God! Your tabernacle
Holds me in its thrall!
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Questing, I am now imprisoned.
Spectres o’er me flap—
Threatening, threatening, lure-enticing,
Spider’s silky trap!
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Much too late. In darkened hell-hole
Blind, condemned to rot …
Yet, regretful, dallying light’s call—
Strengthless, take my lot.