The surly cop looked out at me in sleep

insect-like. Guess, who was the insect.

I’d asked him in my robe

& hospital gown in the elevator politely

why someone saw so many police around,

and without speaking he looked.

A meathead, and of course he was armed, to creep

across my nervous system some time ago wrecked.

I saw the point of Loeb

at last, to give oneself over to crime wholly,

baffle, torment, roar laughter, or without sound

attend while he is cooked

until with trembling hands hoist I my true

& legal ax, to get at the brains. I never liked brains—

it’s the texture & the thought—

but I will like them now, spooning at you,

my guardian, slowly, until at lenght the rains

lose heart and the sun flames out.